Retreat

I have dreams I want to share,
Not with all, for they don’t care;
But with one, I fear whose stare,
It’s my God, who’s always there.

I wish to share with Him, who believes in me,
He does I know, which is why I am here;
He loves me endlessly despite all my wrongs,
He accepts as I am, without a frown.
With Him alone I wish to stay,
Laugh, talk, share and play;
Just two of us, in a world of our own,
I have decided to be a recluse, to stay with Him alone;
This world, this life, gets on me at times,
I am not made for this world and no one here’s mine.
Deluge of sensitivity and emotions engulf my mind,
There’s no one who understands me, no one of my kind.
I am in this world of constant commotion and imbalance,
I don’t feel like talking to this world, but remain in silence;
They mock, they jibe, they gloat and criticize,
For they’ve nothing more to offer, as they’ve a vacuum inside.
I too participated in this world incomplete,
Fought, lied, smacked, criticized,
Cursed, swore, groused and abhorred.
But now I wish to abandon this world, yes I wish to retreat.